i dont really have a great reason/excuse as to why i wasnt blogging except for the fact that i wasnt really feeling it these past few weeks. a little time off is always necessary in life no matter what we do though, no?! so i guess thats what ill call it.
july 4th is this weekend and i cant believe it. i moved out here 11 months ago. that is nuts!! with one month to go on my lease, i am in serious thinking mode about my next step. so far its involved lots of tears, lots of stress, lots of chocolate and and lots of late night amazing convos with my besties. yep, pretty much the norm :) thanks guys for all the support (team hilary is incredible and i couldnt survive without you). xoxo
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
thanks mom
…for always being my number one fan. from cheering me on at intramural soccer games, to letting me join you in aerobic classes, to driving us all over the northeast playing select soccer you never missed a chance to tell me you were proud of me.
…for teaching me to to be independent and adventurous. i know it sucks that i keep moving around the country and always seem to be living 3,000 miles away, swinging through town only for whirlwind holiday visits or quick weekends. know that home is always in my heart, even if we don’t see each other nearly as much as we should. (that is going to change. ha!)
…for reading my blog. and commenting. 
i have had several people mention how cool it is that you do that. thanks for being a member of my little community here.
i have had several people mention how cool it is that you do that. thanks for being a member of my little community here....for being my mom. i know its not easy being a mom to a growing women. we are complicated (understatement?!), but i just want you to know that its really special to me that you support me no matter what i decide.
...for helping me grieve, grow and learn how to live life. you not only let me look to you for help and advice, you encourage it. you never pounce on me in moments of weakness or confusion, you laugh at them with me.
so, thank you. i mean it. really: thank you. i cant wait to see you soon, FINALLY! i love you so much bestie. xoxo
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
hey, its ok!
...to laugh so loudly that everyone stares (mom, we got this one down!)
...to spend a whole happy hour making up names for that band you all are totally going to start one day.
...if the erotic appeal of toe-sucking utterly baffles you.
...to not have the kind of dad who plays golf, wears ties, and serves as your personal ATM. (hear that, gretting card people?!)
...if you have a "type". the heart wants what it wants. and the loins. they want what they want too.
...to tell him youll need more than a drawer at his place. please: counter space in the bathroom, room in the closet, and a spot for your soymilk. lets me real.
...to have a couple of holdover phrases from high school that you can get rid of. sweet!
...to spend a whole happy hour making up names for that band you all are totally going to start one day.
...if the erotic appeal of toe-sucking utterly baffles you.
...to not have the kind of dad who plays golf, wears ties, and serves as your personal ATM. (hear that, gretting card people?!)
...if you have a "type". the heart wants what it wants. and the loins. they want what they want too.
...to tell him youll need more than a drawer at his place. please: counter space in the bathroom, room in the closet, and a spot for your soymilk. lets me real.
...to have a couple of holdover phrases from high school that you can get rid of. sweet!
10 things that never cross a mans mind
* i know! ill write an actual letter explaining how i feel.
* man, i am so in the mood for a sweet little romantic gerard butler comedy.
* if i want us to date for two years and have time together before three kids, with the last one born by 38...god, i need to meet the love of my life tonight.
* i really gotta replace these undies.
* oh, wow, babe, this teapot would be perfect to put away for your mom for next christmas.
* darn this huge penis.
* im boycotting sex until she apologizes.
* two pounds up? no beer for a month!
* no, no, its ok, boss, you dont have to pay me well.
* if you like it, you should put a ring on it!
HAHAHA! had to share this, i just loved it!!!
* man, i am so in the mood for a sweet little romantic gerard butler comedy.
* if i want us to date for two years and have time together before three kids, with the last one born by 38...god, i need to meet the love of my life tonight.
* i really gotta replace these undies.
* oh, wow, babe, this teapot would be perfect to put away for your mom for next christmas.
* darn this huge penis.
* im boycotting sex until she apologizes.
* two pounds up? no beer for a month!
* no, no, its ok, boss, you dont have to pay me well.
* if you like it, you should put a ring on it!
HAHAHA! had to share this, i just loved it!!!
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
am i ready to head back to the snow?!
as you may or may not know, i am contemplating a move back east.
this decision is being fueled by a lot of things. here is a little walk through my head: (seatbelts on!!)
* my best friends are in nyc and have wanted me there for way too long
* i love nyc
* i love the east coast
* id have a roomie (and i think i need one...i think its make my life so much more fun!)
* id be a train ride from mom, and drew for that matter
* lets face it, i will find a job. i found a job, an apt, and got my car in 4 days in LA. i think i can do it....
of course there are cons to every pro, and i am able to recognize that. i know it wont be easy or simple, but when in life have i chosen that route?! haha. i work hard. i can survive anything. ive hit bottom in terms of fragility and have been able to work my way through it. im pretty sure nothing, noone and no city can hit me as hard as losing my dad. and for that, i feel prepared for any and all bullshit. look, if i can handle working for dov charney at AA, i can handle nyc.
thoughts?!
this decision is being fueled by a lot of things. here is a little walk through my head: (seatbelts on!!)
* my best friends are in nyc and have wanted me there for way too long
* i love nyc
* i love the east coast
* id have a roomie (and i think i need one...i think its make my life so much more fun!)
* id be a train ride from mom, and drew for that matter
* lets face it, i will find a job. i found a job, an apt, and got my car in 4 days in LA. i think i can do it....
of course there are cons to every pro, and i am able to recognize that. i know it wont be easy or simple, but when in life have i chosen that route?! haha. i work hard. i can survive anything. ive hit bottom in terms of fragility and have been able to work my way through it. im pretty sure nothing, noone and no city can hit me as hard as losing my dad. and for that, i feel prepared for any and all bullshit. look, if i can handle working for dov charney at AA, i can handle nyc.
thoughts?!
Sunday, May 9, 2010
happy mothers day!!
Mom, I love you.
Thanks for always putting up with me throughout all the hysterical phone calls, tears, sore throats, homesickness, tummy aches, spontaneous business ideas and sheer hilary-isms. I am proud to be your daughter. Even more than that, I am lucky to be your daughter. These past 10 months have been excruciating being away from you, but have taught me things I needed to find. I know who I am and I know what I want. I know what I am capable of, and I know how to push myself, and when to loosen up. I have gotten clarity (read: clarity, not understanding, haha!) on our situation...I still dont get it, but I am learning to channel dad when I need to because of everything he was able to give me before he was taken. You are my best friend and I cant wait for our next chapter...in the same tiem zone. Happy mothers day to the greatest mom there is. Youre the best, I love you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! xoxo
Thursday, April 29, 2010
i blame my hormones
i cant quench my hunger for chocolate! 2 chocolate drizzled pita sandwiches, chocolate covered pretzles, a chocolate protein bar, countless nips candies and so on. yum yum! i think im hormonal. that and work has been sucking like crazy. (i swear i had real meals today too...those were just some chocolatey extras!), ps, the boy!? he sucks. im over it. thank you, that is all :)
haha! happy thursday. this little chub is going to continue drowning her emotions in chocolate. yea, its healthy. its getting me through this week. bye bye!
haha! happy thursday. this little chub is going to continue drowning her emotions in chocolate. yea, its healthy. its getting me through this week. bye bye!
Sunday, April 18, 2010
confessions of a blogger
i still love the backstreet boys. they just came out with a new album, and i love it.
i am in love. at least in hilary world. hes a lucky SOB isnt he?! haha, just kidding.
i am having a ball creating a life here in LA. its so great meeting good people. makes it all worth it when you seem to meet a lot of not-so-good people (nicest way to say it).
i like to hike in the middle on nowhere with great people. the best adventures always happen that way.
i want my dad back.
i saw the hugest penis today from a tiny little bishon. he was dry humping a lab, and it was huge. we all joked that he had the dick of a black man (please excuse the language). it was the funniest thing i have ever seen. took 20 minutes just to go back in. too much information, i know, but this was truly the most hilariously, amazingly ridiculous thing i have seen in a long time! OMG! wish we had taken a picture.
i love bbq-ing with friends. i have high hopes for the summer :)
really wants this boy to work out. (he has the same initials as my best friend. if that isnt a sign, i dont know what is! haha)
i have been a bit absent blogging these past couple weeks. real life got in the way a bit. i really need to add some pics and update what i have been up to. i have visited malibu, hiked the zuma beach canyons, gone to a jazz concert with my boy crush, met some great people, have spent many nights enjoying the weather and bbqing with friends, suffered through work, planned an amazing weekend for my best friends to come visit, gone on some amazing runs, etc. oh, and i downloaded some backstreet boys songs. HA! i definitely owe my lil blog some pictures. i hope to do that soon!!
i am in love. at least in hilary world. hes a lucky SOB isnt he?! haha, just kidding.
i am having a ball creating a life here in LA. its so great meeting good people. makes it all worth it when you seem to meet a lot of not-so-good people (nicest way to say it).
i like to hike in the middle on nowhere with great people. the best adventures always happen that way.
i want my dad back.
i saw the hugest penis today from a tiny little bishon. he was dry humping a lab, and it was huge. we all joked that he had the dick of a black man (please excuse the language). it was the funniest thing i have ever seen. took 20 minutes just to go back in. too much information, i know, but this was truly the most hilariously, amazingly ridiculous thing i have seen in a long time! OMG! wish we had taken a picture.
i love bbq-ing with friends. i have high hopes for the summer :)
really wants this boy to work out. (he has the same initials as my best friend. if that isnt a sign, i dont know what is! haha)
i have been a bit absent blogging these past couple weeks. real life got in the way a bit. i really need to add some pics and update what i have been up to. i have visited malibu, hiked the zuma beach canyons, gone to a jazz concert with my boy crush, met some great people, have spent many nights enjoying the weather and bbqing with friends, suffered through work, planned an amazing weekend for my best friends to come visit, gone on some amazing runs, etc. oh, and i downloaded some backstreet boys songs. HA! i definitely owe my lil blog some pictures. i hope to do that soon!!
signs it wasnt you - it was him
* having sunday lunch at your mothres house, when asked if he wanted custard or cream with his dessert, he threw his napkin in the air and cried, "i dont know! i have to make that sort of commitment now?! stop crowding me. i cant breathe. i cant breathe. GIVE ME AIR!"
* he changed his facebook status to single because the eggs you boiled for his breakfast-in-bed treat were too rubbery and the bacon wasnt crispy enough
* he forgot your birthday. even though its the same day as jesus's. which is christmas day. noone forgets.
* you bought his a mug with "hot stuff" on it. he bought you a mug with "mug" on it.
* you 'made love' to him. he 'nailed' you. (ha, gross).
* he used your new iphone as a coaster for his beer (um, idiot?!)
* he kept cracking "jokes" about threesomes when he first met your friends.
mind you, i find these utterly hilarious, and quite frankly, absurd. however, delightfully entertaining.
* he changed his facebook status to single because the eggs you boiled for his breakfast-in-bed treat were too rubbery and the bacon wasnt crispy enough
* he forgot your birthday. even though its the same day as jesus's. which is christmas day. noone forgets.
* you bought his a mug with "hot stuff" on it. he bought you a mug with "mug" on it.
* you 'made love' to him. he 'nailed' you. (ha, gross).
* he used your new iphone as a coaster for his beer (um, idiot?!)
* he kept cracking "jokes" about threesomes when he first met your friends.
mind you, i find these utterly hilarious, and quite frankly, absurd. however, delightfully entertaining.
10 things to say to your mom (after happy mothers day, of course)
in honor of mothers day coming up in about 3 weeks, i thought this post was appropriate:
1. thanks for the orthodontia
2. the card is in the mail. sorry its late, and yes, im still a procrastinator in spite of everything you did to help with that
3. sure, i cried every morning at day care, but im so proud of your career
4. the clothes you wore in the eighties - where are they? and dont be hurt when i call them vintage
5. my sex life is satisfying and safe, and you dont need details
6. im moving back in! haha, just kidding
7. the crazy rules i fought at age 16? thanks for sticking by them
8. ...oh, and a general apology for that whole year. ok, decade
9. its all your fault i just spent $100 on organizing bins at the container store
10. and hey, mom, hows your crazy week going?
mom, i love you so much. you deserve more than one day a year. thank you for being my mom. i am such a lucky, lucky girl. xoxo
1. thanks for the orthodontia
2. the card is in the mail. sorry its late, and yes, im still a procrastinator in spite of everything you did to help with that
3. sure, i cried every morning at day care, but im so proud of your career
4. the clothes you wore in the eighties - where are they? and dont be hurt when i call them vintage
5. my sex life is satisfying and safe, and you dont need details
6. im moving back in! haha, just kidding
7. the crazy rules i fought at age 16? thanks for sticking by them
8. ...oh, and a general apology for that whole year. ok, decade
9. its all your fault i just spent $100 on organizing bins at the container store
10. and hey, mom, hows your crazy week going?
mom, i love you so much. you deserve more than one day a year. thank you for being my mom. i am such a lucky, lucky girl. xoxo
hey, its ok!
...for your "secret ingredient" to be ketchup
...that you have a posh phone voice
..to still be obsessed with lightning bugs aged 30
...for facebook de-tagging to take priority over, oh, everything
...if you dont always return clothes to the rail you picked them up from
...to google yourself. and be a bit dissapointed
...to go to the gym only to sit gossiping in the sauna. your pores are now immaculate
...for your wardrobe to have an identity crisis in this weird "is it winter or is it spring" weather confusion
...to have sex that only lasts as long as the ad break
...that you have a posh phone voice
..to still be obsessed with lightning bugs aged 30
...for facebook de-tagging to take priority over, oh, everything
...if you dont always return clothes to the rail you picked them up from
...to google yourself. and be a bit dissapointed
...to go to the gym only to sit gossiping in the sauna. your pores are now immaculate
...for your wardrobe to have an identity crisis in this weird "is it winter or is it spring" weather confusion
...to have sex that only lasts as long as the ad break
Saturday, April 10, 2010
hey, its ok!
...to spend twice as much for the coca-cola in the little old-fashioned bottle.
...to consider driving with the windows down an effective hair-drying method.
...to actually use the coupons your mom sends you.
...to take great pleasure in telling guys to "man up." (because we women? we "up" everday).
...to secretly care if your name comes first in the CC list on a group email. not that it matters, right? right?!
...to to bummed its almost toenail maintenance season. (not me! i loooove pedicures!!!!)
...to never really know what to do with a name tag. if youre wearing strapless, does it go on your skin?
...to like fruit after a meal but be clear that its not dessert. pie is dessert. cake is dessert. kiwis are not.
...to consider driving with the windows down an effective hair-drying method.
...to actually use the coupons your mom sends you.
...to take great pleasure in telling guys to "man up." (because we women? we "up" everday).
...to secretly care if your name comes first in the CC list on a group email. not that it matters, right? right?!
...to to bummed its almost toenail maintenance season. (not me! i loooove pedicures!!!!)
...to never really know what to do with a name tag. if youre wearing strapless, does it go on your skin?
...to like fruit after a meal but be clear that its not dessert. pie is dessert. cake is dessert. kiwis are not.
hi bloggies!
its been a while since i blogged. while i absolutely loooooove to blog, life has gotten a bit in the way. please excuse this somewhat wallowing, sad, frustrated and blah post. i just seem to have hitten that proverbial wall.
after spending 12 straight days in the office (yes, easter sunday was spent at work), i am feeling a bit low. life has been feeling especially heavy lately. just seems i am doing an awful lot of struggling and not getting anywhere.
ok ok enough of this. i want to post something happy. i think its time for "hey, its ok!"
after spending 12 straight days in the office (yes, easter sunday was spent at work), i am feeling a bit low. life has been feeling especially heavy lately. just seems i am doing an awful lot of struggling and not getting anywhere.
ok ok enough of this. i want to post something happy. i think its time for "hey, its ok!"
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