Friday, March 19, 2010

i am such a kid on friday.

it is friday! you know what, thats all for now.
im tired, its been a long week...the sun is out and i am going home soon.

ill update later this weekend on my lovely commute home the other night and how a dude ever-so-crazily floored his car in reverse to hit me! hahaha...i can laugh about it cause its just that ridiculous.

in the meantime have a GREAT night. happy friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, March 18, 2010

life must be a woman...cause she can be such a bitch.

ha! that post title cracks me up. totally made that up as i was typing. but you have to admit...its pretty true.

its beginning to feel a lot more like i live in southern cal these hot hot hot! its tough to sleep with it being so hot (no AC), work in an office that has poor/sometimes no AC (yea, the boys are miserable!!!)...but i love it! loooooooooove it!!

there is not better feeling in the world then driving home after work when it is still bright light out! doesnt it just do something to your mood? that said, i must admit, ive been thinking a lot about dad recently. i mean, like all the time. i feel such a heaviness in my heart sometimes that seeing a girl and her dad together, or hearing a sappy song, or going for a run really bring it into the forefront. he was such a vital part of my life, and i am so thankful we were so close for so long. the open scar i am left with is what i am having a tough time understanding...

ok ok, back to happiness. hope you all are having a good day at work and are going home soon! lord knows im ready! haha...

Thursday, March 11, 2010

couldnt have said it better myself

since i started my blog, i have come across a ton that i love and regularly follow. one of my favorites,, posted this the other day:

"I don’t discuss it much on the blog, but the last 6 months have been rough for me. Some days all I want to do is come home, have a good cry, and watch a Hannah Montana movie. Sometimes that makes me feel better, but other times I know that running is the answer. I was in quite the funk yesterday afternoon, but I still followed through with my plan to do a speed workout on the treadmill.  And I’m so glad I did. For 60 minutes, I wasn’t sad or upset – I was completely focused on the numbers: the length of my intervals, the pace I needed to run, and the miles piling it up. For the past 10 years, running has helped me feel accomplished when nothing else seemed to be going right. It’s given me an outlet for stress and time to think and reflect. Sometimes I really do believe that sweat and tears are the cure for everything".

OMG! this is exactly how i feel. its like i wrote this post (...minus the hanna montana movie...haha!). its true, though. these last 6 months have been really heavy, crazy, stressful, sad, yet fabulous all at once. i moved 3000 miles away from home...with just my one suitcase and no plan. i got myself a job and an apartment. i support myself with a very measly income. i miss my dad. i think its ever daughters right to need her dad for advice, reason and a little indulgence. sometimes i just want him to call and tell me he loves me. tell me it will all be ok. tell me that i am worth it, and that i am good enough. i want to tell him the same. i want to meet up and go running with him. i want to go see a movie with him, and stay up late eating ice cream. i want him to tell me im nuts when i discuss boys. more than anything, i want to tell him how much i love him, and i want to hear how much he loves me. because at the end of the day, he really was proud of me. and i dont think i can ever be as good, strong or confident as i was with him here. i dont feel as though i am a complete person without my dad. its hard to fight the thinking that there isnt a point to any of it (not in a suicidal way...i mean, im crazy, but lets keep it real here...)....haha. i worry that i wont find my "john kelley". i worry that noone will want me. i feel that noone will make me feel the same way my dad did. i will be honest, its really hard being 26 years old and trying to be super strong. its exhausting. as annoying as it sounds, sometimes i really just need my dad to tell me that i am enough. mistakes and all. god dammit. my solution is for my momma to move out here and work (in some capacity) with her. all in all, i am definitely going through a period right now of the blahs...and if my shout out to one of my fave blogs is any indication, im not the only one.

hi JK! i miss you daddio :)

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

10 ways to fix a bad day fast...

its wednesday...that ill fated hump day, so i figured it was a fun time to publish this list. hopefully everyone is having a great day, and even better week, but here are some tips in case thats not true.

*rub your own feet. who needs a whipped boyfriend?

*kiss someone. bonus points if theyer over 83 or under threee

*put on your highest heels - or take those suckers off!
*go into closet. shut door. scream. feel a little silly for screaming in closet. carry on.

*throw caution to the wind and actually smile at a stranger.

*have an orgasm. maybe two.

*catnap, preferably with a cat (or a dog).

*just give up and put your hair in a ponytail.

* stop waiting for _______ to make you happy. youre in charge!

*get off that weird fad diet immediately. its wrecking your day...and metabolism.

this is one bitch i could get behind...

i hope you already know her...and love her, but if not, here is an intro. she is a loud-mouthed, brass tv host who tells it like it is. who is she? wendy williams. she is a bitch, and owns it. she is strong, brash, crass and funny. i recently came across a fun little article of hers in glamour magazine where she details her dos and donts (of pretty much life in general). so here goes:

DO take the time to learn how to hammer a nail and replace a flat. and...

DONT call your ex or your daddy if you dont know how. put on your bug-girl panties and figure it out. or go to do!

DO become an expert at the art of the seven-minute conversation. theyre the reason talk shows are so entertaining - and you may learn some jewels.

DONT share your complete financial pitcure with your man. it is, after all, your money, and if hes good to you, youll share...maybe.

DO believe in the sisterhood, and know that not all women want yout style, your job, your life or your lover.

DONT trust any one person with all your secrets. learn to become your own best friend.

and there you have it. some lifestyle tips from one badass woman. i like them. though i will be someone who has had a flat tire before...i fully support AAA and do not feel the need to pretend like i can do a better job than these guys. theres a reason we are a part of this incredible, incredible, incredible program. and i make no apologies for it.

any lifestyle tips you particular like? would you add to this list? i have sooo many fun tidbits you pick up along the way.

Friday, March 5, 2010

3 weeks

wooooooooooooooooooooooooo woooooooooooooooooooooooo wooooooooooooo!

err, excuse me, i think i lost it there for a second.
a minor meltdown. im back now. thank you for sticking around.

basically, my mom will be here in 3 weeks. a full weekend just with momma!
and were going surfing. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok, i think you get it...this post is not going to be subdued. i cant help it.
i am soooo excited. i havent seen my mom since christmas, and its killing me.
and i finally get a day off. phew. i just cant wait to have a sleepover with momma!!
happpppy friday!