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a little mental cleansing

so tonight at 7, my mom and i are heading over to hospice for a bereavement class. its for an hour and a half, and can i just tell you how excited i am. i think this is going to be really good. obviously my use of the word "excited" is not the usual way you would use it...i mean i get excited about boys, and music and amusement parks which is a little different. i am excited in the sense that i love remembering my dad. i love thinking about him and honoring his life. i love thinking about all the good he gave me and how much he taught me. he was my #1 fan, and i really am empty without him. with him i had no fear that id succeed in life. i knew that despite all the bumps i hit, i would be ok. that has been taken away. i am vulnerable. we all are.

ok ok, no more of that right now. i could talk like that forever. but this should be a good cleansing. and tomorrow we are meeting with ted for coffee. that will be really positive too. he has a way of making me feel calm about it all. i guess thats why hes a preacher, haha. so thats what us kelley girls have going on...ill be sure to update later this week.

love you all! xoxo

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great to hear u and your mom are going for bereavement classes. one comment i have to make though, i know u felt like with your dad you could do anything...you still can, hes still there with you, you just have to believe in yourself and remember that he would believe in you if he were still physically sitting right next to you. keep going and doing whatever it is your heart desires. i know that the one thing parents hope most for their kids is happiness and success in whatever they try. and i know your dad still wants that for you!

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